Splinter
I
Curves everywhere
The streets leading us
Past sublime images
Emptying this mess
That is your inner turmoil
Your life only another curve
In the world’s destiny
A majestic sinus-graph
You’ll realise life’s
A math equation:
Pointers define an up and down movement
Though not predictable
In reality for the future
In hindsight
There emerges a pattern
Of naïve decisions
A curve
In the woman’s bathing suit
She’s careless
And we should all care less
About delineating from
The linear path in life
And choose the deviating curvy road
The curvy hills
Leave me feeling small
And speechless
Disillusioned by the glory of nature
Mammoth issues turn into tiny spots
On earth’s daily spin around itself
We pass the curves on earth’s surface
And all I can see
Is the light at the end of the tunnels
We drive though
Every couple of hours
Sometimes even ending up in a new country
By the mere act of driving through a mountain
As if it holds the door to another world
II
I told myself once
that I’d never come back
no feelings of regret
attached to this deserted place
of tainted trust
and broken bonds
Now I’m back here
Among those whose blood I share
I used to hit a wall of fear
Surrounding all those who don’t care
About conventions
and expectations
Stared at with a perplexed gaze
How one could breach their sacred
Laws of life
Now I’m here
And it feels as if I was denying
To be part of this bloodline
All my life
III
All I see is blue:
Blue sea,
Blue skies,
Blue mountains
Blue eyes
At night everything
Melts into one palette of blue
Interrupted by single dots
Of orange lights
Reflections of life
On the other side
Of the sea
Growing with every hour
That passes
Feeling blue
After a dip into
The clear water
That leaves my skin longing
For more
I want to become part of this palette of blue too
And looking at the other side
At night
It looks
As if stars
Were flying
Over the homes to give light
IV
Too many voices fill the room
Too much air consumed
Nothing left for myself
Suffocating from the
Intimacy they force
Me to comply to
But I can’t
I can’t give more
They take it all
And return my all
With too much
Want for more
Haven’t seen their faces
Haven’t heard their voices
For half my life
The heart
needs time
to remember
And to forget
The air is thick
Of wishful thinking
To return to former glory
But it’ll never be that pure again
Didn’t come back to make amends
But to reach out to show
I’m the bigger person
Coming back to the place
I once turned my back on
Because repentance matters
At the end of the day
It takes two sides
to accept their mistakes
So here is me
Saying sorry
For having been
the lost daughter
But don’t expect that a change of heart
Equals a rewind button
My mind needs air
To deal with the present
Leave me to myself
To process the situation
I’m not running away
But fear to jump to conclusions
So accept my pace
And don’t rush
Matters of blood
V
We walked past houses
Rows of thousands
Of fig trees
Down to the abyss
Where we found a church
A ruin
A reminder of the past
A remainder of the immortal
Spirit of faith
That encapsulates this place
The sun burning on our faces
The sweat running down our necks
Our eyes are set
On the horizon
Every step
taking us closer to the edge
and we are rewarded with a view that takes our breath away
VI
Out of the water
Coming up for air
rising without wings
to touch the sky
I need to soar
High above the ground
But my legs are heavy
Just a victim of gravity
Turn this place upside down
Because all beauty dies
faced with that frown
But they will still scorn you
For having beliefs
These silly dreams
If there’s no money
Give it up honey
There’s no room for passion
Yet it’s not a want
But a need
Accept my flaws
My desires
My fears
My fire
Or I will become lost once more
-Maria